There is lot to learn and miles to go before i sleep. I know i can't afford to enjoy the luxuries of life for my life has been a luxurious one. Had my ups and had my downs and so painfull happiness have they provided me that i have now started relishing the contradictions. Infact the realisation that contradictions add meaning to life as does the urge for a dumb person to speak out his mind, has added a new dimension to my persona. Don't know if i should be gratified for all the troubles i have surpassed or be guilty of inviting them in the first place. But then you realize that it doesn't matter at all. Infact you really have very little choice or no choice at all.
It all depends on the one choice you were allowed to make. And for me i know that somewhere at the end of my previous life or may be at the begining of this one (i don't know) i chose to take the blue pill and the rest is all for you to see.
Infact its not that philosophical as it seems to be. For philosophy is the luxury the fortunate ones can afford and as mentioned at the begining of this post i can't afford to enjoy the luxuries of life. Its as if i am not programmed to enjoy. But then there would be someone who coded me. May be he can help debug me. Or is it me only who has the key. May be i can try that that out. May be i am trying it out now. I don't know.
Monday, May 28, 2007
Shootout at Lokhandwala. An apt title for even more aptly directed movie. But alas, it is still a motion film. A staging of a real event and not the reality, as opposed to its claims. The director, Apura Lakhia tried hard to be neutral to the chain of events that took place in A002, Svati building, Lokhandwala on 16th November 1991. But failed to my dismay and succmbed to leave an imprint of his own perceived opinion of the events. At the end he sets out to prove his counsel Mr. S S Khan (A A Khan in real life) not guilty. Well thats not what I wanted to see in it. There was plenty in the newspaper on Mr A A Khan's version if I ever cared for that. One of the charges on the ATS thinktank was of his links with the 'bhai' in Dubai. This was conveniently dodged by the director.